Eight years have passed since The Call on 07-07-07 in Nashville, TN. The purpose for that solemn assembly was to divorce baal and re-covenant ourselves and our nation back to God. There may have been others that did this before that day, but this was when I got involved. I understood the concept and greatly desired to draw closer to Jesus, but little did I realize what attending this one event was going to cost me. I wanted to rid myself and my family from debt and dependence on the world, but I didn’t understand how deeply entrenched we were in the world systems. God, being rich in mercy, was about to show me.
We remember the Israelites that cried out for freedom when they were slaves in Egypt. God heard their cries and told Pharaoh, “Let my people go that they might worship Me.” Yet, when they got free, they had no idea how to live free. They began to long for the comforts of their captivity. They had no vision for freedom. Even though God provided everything they needed, it still wasn’t good enough. They would not trust Him. All the miracles they witnessed did not change their mind; they were stiff-necked and stubborn, ungrateful and rebellious. The Israelites were transitioning into the Promised Land. The glorious promise the Lord had given to His people was about to manifest, but they couldn’t let go of small-minded thinking long enough to gain God’s vision for their future.
When I made that declaration to divorce baal and re-marry Jesus on 7-7-07, I embarked on that same journey, leaving behind a world of slavery and moving toward freedom. When I married Jesus on that day, He set out to show me what it would mean to live like His royal Bride. I wasn’t prepared for this journey. God had to show me how much I relied on the world and its way of thinking so that I could willingly choose to leave it behind and go on with Him. While I wanted to trust God, there were many times that I could not comprehend how God could turn a situation for good. How could I be safe in such a place?
The only way to confront fear is to face it head on. This journey toward the promise included facing many fears. I had no idea I was controlled by fear. We find comfort in being “normal” and fitting in with the crowd. The problem is that we don’t realize who decided it was “normal.” We truly are like dumb sheep, plodding along thinking someone at the front of the line knows where they are going. Conformity can be mundane and many people complain about it, but the truth is, there is much comfort in conformity. The Bible tells us not to be conformed to the world, but to be transformed by the renewing of our minds. To break rank with the world leaves us vulnerable and exposed, at least that’s how it feels. We stick out like a sore thumb and are often judged and misunderstood. To stand for Christ and Kingdom values is costly. We must be willing to have our reputation ruined and be humbled.
I willingly gave up my high-paying corporate job when I got married and had my first child. God had already put it on my heart to homeschool my children. I loved teaching kids and I wanted to be with them, so it was an easy decision for me. My husband worked and we had to give up some things to live on one salary, but it was well worth it to me. I trusted God to bring us through and cause us to prosper.
After going to The Call, all of that was to be challenged. Unemployment hit our house and we became dependent on the government by collecting unemployment. Next there were food stamps, and the foreclosure notice on our home. Then in 2011, my marriage fell apart and I found myself completely alone and dependent on God for everything. By this time, all my savings and benefits of my life-before-marriage were gone. I had no income, yet I felt certain this was not the time to stop homeschooling and go to work. Our unstable home life had shaken my kids up and I knew they needed me at home now more than ever. I had no idea how I would survive.
As this journey continued, I forgot about divorcing baal and all that stuff that I had been so excited about back in 2007. I was so caught up in the battle that I could barely breathe. Keeping my eyes on Jesus helped me to hold on to His promises. I knew I couldn’t give up even though nothing made sense. Only after all the worldly resources had been stripped away was God able to show me that, not only was He able, but that He wanted to be my sole support.
This was a dangerous journey, yet at times, very exhilarating. I had just enough faith to believe God wasn’t going to let me fall. I came to realize that my real enemy was fear. Fear tried to silence me, it tried to distract me, it spoke lies to me so that I would forget God’s promises, it tried to make me anxious and worried, and it continually sought to make me doubt myself and God. In every aspect of the journey, I had to face off fear and win if I was going to make it through to the end. Thanks be to God who always leads us in triumph! Even if we mess up, God let’s us take the test again!
Today, I realized it was the eight year anniversary of the divorcing baal and re-covenanting myself to Jesus. I sat in awe and rejoiced in the journey. I’m grateful that I didn’t know what was ahead of me eight years ago or I would have gracefully declined. It is good that God doesn’t show us all that is ahead of us. He does, however, give us assurance that He is always with us and His grace is sufficient for us. He has made Himself real to me in every one of these areas and shown Himself strong on my behalf. Not only that, He has let me see who I am, who He created me to be. Every time I triumphed over fear, another part of my identity was unlocked. I have finally come to know, I mean really know in my heart, that I am the Bride of Christ who lacks nothing. I am a daughter of God. Every resource in heaven is available to me. Out of the abundance of His treasury, I can ask for whatever I need. I don’t have to worry about being greedy because when I’m moving with Him, He satisfies me and I am not tempted by greed. I have all I need. I love to give with a generous heart and my Father is delighted in me. God’s Kingdom doesn’t operate like the world. Generosity, honor and love flow freely in His Kingdom. Peace and joy fill the atmosphere. When I am in agreement with Him, I will not be denied. There is no fear of lack. Father always takes care of His children.
The enemy of our souls will use fear and intimidation to try to get us to back down. When we refuse to be intimidated, we win. The secret to this is in knowing God the Father, knowing His nature, His love, His promise; and in knowing Jesus and all that He accomplished for us on the Cross. His innocent blood was shed so that we could experience all the glory of complete unity with Him. His original intent was for Him to dwell among His people and for us to enjoy each other. We won’t experience the fullness of that until Jesus comes again, but we can experience a measure of it even now. In the Lord’s prayer we pray, “on earth as it is in Heaven.” It is our right to ask for that now.
In Rev. 11:15, the voices of Heaven declare, “The kingdom of the world has become the kingdom of our Lord and of His Christ; and He will reign forever and ever.” The Lord Jesus Christ will openly demonstrate His rule over baal and every other idol and then He will deal the final blow to satan. Jesus is the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords and we are His people that will rule and reign with Him forevermore. Praise Him!
It’s time to get to know Jesus and the Father in this way. He desires it for you so that you can become the Son or Daughter of the King that you were created to be. God is still saying, “Let my people go so that they can worship Me.” That is the purpose for which you were created. We must all choose – the world or the Kingdom, satan or Jesus. It all comes down to this. There is no neutral ground. Satan’s world is a world of lies, deceit, oppression and death. Jesus’ Kingdom is the place of love, life, joy and peace. Choose this day whom you will serve – choose life!